Still Here

Well, I figured I should at least post something while I'm recuperating.  My healing process has been very good and relatively painless.  I just have a little tenderness now and then but the part I'm really over is not having any energy.  Taking a shower or a trip to the store just really wears me out and I haven't gotten done all the things I had planned to do during this time.  I've never had surgery before so it is probably just the normal course of things.  A new friend of mine, Belinda, had the surgery the same day as me and she didn't plan on doing anything other than rest and recuperation during her time off and she is taking more time off to recuperate.  Probably smart but I just can't do it so I've been dealing with bits of papers and such that needed purging and filing.  Something I can do sitting down.

So, next Monday will be my first day back to work.  Am I ready?  Not really.  If I had more energy I'd be ready but not so much right now.  Part of the problem is I should go back and start working overtime but I just don't have the energy for that.  We shall see if I regret not taking a little more time off.

On another note I did spend Saturday scrapbooking.  It was nice to be out of the house and being a little creative.  Of course I didn't get as much done as I would have liked but the whole point was to go and have fun.  I didn't finish my project so I'll post it later.  Wish I could say I've been creative during this time but that didn't happen either.  Well, that's all for now.

Heading home

All is well and I'm heading home as we speak. Of course there is an accident on 400. Thought we would beat the rush but no such luck.

Surgery went relly well and I'm feeling pretty chipper other than I'm ready for a nap. Still in a little pain but not bad.

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Tomorrow is a big day

Well, tomorrow is the beginning of a new me. I haven't posted anything more about my thoughts about gastric bypass surgery but I continued investigating it and seeing if my insurance would cover it. In the process of getting everything together for pre-certification I found out that I have high blood pressure and type 2 diabetes. I also found out I'm anemic which may account for my being tired all the time. I also had to write a history of the different things I've tried in order to lose weight. I found that in retrospect I've tried harder than I thought I had. I even worked out with a trainer for a year and continued on my own for another six months and was only able to lose about 40 lbs and I did eat more sensibly during that time.

I felt this way before but after reviewing the last 18 years of my battle with weight I believe that becoming the slim person I once was is not possible without a drastic change. Years of bad eating accumulated and now I'm all messed up with appetite and metabolism. So I find myself in the position that gastric bypass is the best answer for me. I do not agree that it is the answer for everyone and it is not a magic bullet. I am going to have to watch what I eat for the rest of my life and I have to exercise regularly if I want to become my true outer self.

Years ago I read about gastric bypass and all the things you have to give up and I thought no way, that is too hard. I also don't like the idea of altering my body that way but now I've been disgusted with my body and food enough that I am so ready to give up what ever it takes. I say all this not because I feel a need to justify my decision but to give encouragement to others. Try your hardest to lose the weight with healthy eating and exercise but also examine yourself and if you find that you can't do it on your own then do what you need to get healthy and to live life to the fullest.

I am so looking forward to walking in the mountains and riding my bike without dying from hauling all this weight around. I hope my friends will all help me stay accountable with becoming a more active person. This does not mean that I will be giving up Scrapbooking.

Well, tomorrow morning at 7:30 am is the big day. Today is the last day I will be this fat. I can't tell you how much of a difference that is going to make in my life because even I don't know. It will be a challenge but a very good challenge.